My version of throwing words into the wind

 I am surrounded. A wonderful, hard-working, loving, beautiful husband. A beautiful, smart, brave, sometimes frustrating, but equally loving two-year old (!! two years?!) Two roommates that by turns drive me absolutely insane and help me cling to what sanity I do have.

I am irrefutably, devastatingly, inconceivably lonely. I'm reaching out, I'm trying to make new friends near me, but so far I still have that aching loneliness chewing on me every day.

I literally got my medicine regimen in line and as soon as I did, dropped it like a hot potato. I know it's been at least a month since I took a single pill of any sort. (Thyroid, diabetes, adhd). I suspect it's been longer, but I have no clue how much longer.

I need to make dinner. It's my wonderful daughter's birthday and we are having red beans and rice because it is her favorite. We were going to take her out for frozen yogurt but Alex is working late and I'd rather do it tomorrow when he's here.